Wednesday, September 24, 2008

i think this is it

6 days overdue

Dear Baby,

It is the wee hours of September 25 and I think this might turn out to be your birthday. I am writing this in between contractions as Daddy tries to get some sleep upstairs. I might be interrupted a lot, but I don't think I'll be sleeping tonight and I need a project to pass the time while I'm not on the floor trying to breathe. So writing you this letter it is.

I want you to know about this night -- this magical night that you decided was the right one to come out and meet us. We planned on pork chops for dinner. Daddy always grills the meat and I always do the extras. Tonight it was steamed carrots and warm biscuits. I asked Daddy if maybe he could make the pork chops a little spicy to help give you a boost. Daddy liked that idea. He warned me before our first bite that he might have overdone it. Boy was he right! We both started coughing and turning red right away. It was the hottest thing I've ever tasted. Ever!! And then all we could do was laugh and laugh and laugh. Daddy kept apologizing for ruining dinner but I told him he didn't ruin it at all. He made it one I won't ever forget.

After dinner we decided to take a ride on Rocky Road. This is a dirt road through the woods at the end of our street. Some day it will probably be developed into a beautiful neighborhood. You might not ever remember it as dirt road. But for now it's a special secret path that Daddy and I discovered a few nights ago. It's really really bumpy! It's a little scary too. But it's special. Because we drive down it just for you -- to help give you a boost. And I think you like it. I love having silly adventures like that with your daddy. And I love that you get to have them with us now too.

After Rocky Road we came home and started to watch "The Office." This is Daddy's all-time favorite show. Mine too. But you started letting us know you were getting ready to come out. And Daddy and I are so excited to meet you that we decided to give you one more boost. Daddy and I love to take walks together but we usually walk during the day and it's really dark out at night around here! So we decided to just walk up and down our driveway. We did 24 laps. If the neighbors saw us, I bet they thought we looked really funny!

Then we changed our minds and decided the dark wasn't going to stop us. We put on our sneakers and headed out to the neighborhood. It's a whole other world in the dark. And I loved it. There are so many stars out tonight and Daddy and I both made a wish. Daddy's wish was quick and mine was long. He made fun of me for that but I didn't care. I have a lot to wish for. And I think maybe you heard me.

It's very late now but I don't think I'll be sleeping tonight at all and that's ok with me. I want to spend the whole night with you. I want to tell you how proud I am of you. We are in this labor thing together, ok? And I promise you I'll take care of you through it. I'll take care of you through your whole life. I promise.

So don't be scared, sweet baby. Mommy's not scared either. We'll get through this together, and at the end of it Daddy and I will be waiting for you. The whole world will be waiting for you. 

Happy Birth Day. I love you.

Love,
Mommy


18 comments:

Anonymous said...

What a wonderful letter to your new baby! Good luck and congratulations!

Robyn said...

Good luck!

Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog since you started it and to you go from absolute heartache over your loss to pure bliss with your new baby is just ... amazing. Thoughts and prayers are with you in the next few days as you welcome your precious darling into the world! Congratulations!

Joanne said...

what a beautiful letter!! congratulations!! you will be a wonderful mom.

Bekah said...

I just stumbled across your blog, this letter is so adorable. What an amazing thing to have to give to your child one day.

Mrs Little Fisch said...

Woohoo! Thinking of you and wishing you a speedy delivery, lots of stamina, and a bouncing, beautiful, healthy baby. All the best,

Mrs F

Beth said...

so excited for you!! can't wait to "meet" your little one

nestie: ourlittlebean

Tracy said...

Lots of tears after reading that! good luck, sweetie.

Maria (MKC101103) said...

Oh that is so sweet...and now I'm crying :)

buckeyebabe99 said...

::sniffles:: That was absolutely beautiful!! Hope you're holding him/her right now!!

Lynda said...

love it! hope the little one has arrived!!! so excited to hear some news!
congrats!

Lindsey said...

What a sweet letter! I'm sure you'll be happy to have that here in 18 years or so, so that you can remember everything. :) Good luck, can't wait to see pics!

Ariella said...

What an amazing letter, your baby is so lucky to have you as its mother.

Monica @ Writer Chic said...

That was the sweetest thing EVER, and we just got the Nest news that the baby is here. Congrats, girl!!!! =) You're gonna be a phenomonal mommy!

Shanny said...

Such a beautiful letter. Congrats!!!!

cjinmd (cara) said...

andra, that was the most beautiful thing i have read in a long long while. perfectly said how i think many of have felt. a huge congrats to you, DH, and avery.

Jessica said...

your letter made me cry a little--what a great thing to be able to show her when she's older. congrats on your new baby!

nestie jwally

Sarah said...

Good luck and I hope you and your baby have a good delivery.